Still Alive and Feelin' Ballsy. . .Well, Sometimes

It's been a long time since I've updated, I know.

For those of you who have patiently stuck around, you'll be happy to know (I know I am!) that I attended the last class of my college career today. Just one final exam next week, and then onto a new chapter!

I'm in the midst of finding a new place to live, and finding time to get some holiday shopping done. While shopping today, I had a topic come into my mind and I thought, “What a perfect opportunity to revive my poor, neglected blog.”

The topic of pain tolerance in spankos has been discussed many times before. I've heard a lot of spankees say that while they can handle a good amount of pain from a spanking, they're complete babies when it comes to other forms of physical pain (a stubbed toe, for example).

I'm the same way, but I've also found another dichotomy in myself: how adventurous I am in my vanilla life vs. my spanko life.

I'm not a risk taker. In most every situation, I quickly establish my comfort zone and remain there. Unlike the typical college-aged wanderer, I've lived in the same apartment for over half of my college career and have held the same part-time job for longer than that. I crave stability and thrive on list-making and plans.

As a spanko, I'm completely different. I get giddy about trying new things and pushing my limits. I'm fearless when it comes to trying new and scary implements. Going past where I feel comfortable in a spanking excites me. My stomach flips at the thought of spontaneously being turned over someone's knee.

It seems strange to me that my spanko self is most comfortable being uncomfortable, while my usual personality is so different from that.

Can any of you relate?

Also, a sincere THANK YOU to everyone who has voted for me as New Spankee of the Year. It has been a great year and I have all of you to thank. :-)

Interview and Shoot!

Yes, I know the announcement about my interview is delayed, but better late than never?

My interview for Richard Windsor has been up on his site for a few days now, and I'm really happy with how it turned out. I love reading all of the positive feedback, too. Thanks, Rich, for the generous promotion!

It was fun for me to shoot the interview with Danny, because I do like to share my experiences and spanko past with this awesome community. If you haven't checked it out yet, please do!

At my RealSpankings shoot on Thursday, I got to shoot with another model, Frankie. She's fairly new, and very fun to work with, not to mention adorably spankable. :-) We started off in our school uniforms for RSI, and were made to strip down to only our socks and shoes and receive a hand spanking for messing around during our free hour.

I have kind of a funny story here. Michael Masterson had me bent over grabbing my knees for the hand spanking, and I had the hardest time keeping my balance as he swatted away. It was quite distracting, and I kept stumbling forward and having to reset my position. Also, we realized after we had shot the first scene that there had been a misplaced bathrobe sitting on the table the entire time. Redo!

Not really, but it does look a little out of place. Shooting spanking scenes doesn't always go so smoothly!

For the second scene, we changed into gym uniforms and got strapped for failing to improve our fitness exams over the year. That was actually realistic for me; I despised gym class in school and never got decent grades even though my other grades were perfect. Whoever decided that kids need to dress in horrible uniforms and run around in circles obviously had problems. Oh, right, back to the shoot. . .Our third scene was a first for me, as I had never been paddled on camera before. Paddles are scary for me, and I genuinely fear them. Michael assured me that the paddle they used for their School Swats series was a lighter aspen wood and although it would be painful, it was over clothes and wouldn't be as bad as I thought.

It was still bad. But I grimaced my way through it and was proud in the end. I even got to sign the School Swats paddle! Frankie braved her way through it, too.

I didn't mark much at first, but a small bruise appeared on my right cheek a day later, and I still feel sore. Another successful shoot. :-)

P.s. Oh! Also, the 2010 Spanking Awards are going on right now, and Violetta was sweet enough to nominate me for New Spankee of the Year. Realspankings got a lot of nominations as well, which is great. Take a look if you feel inclined! ;-)

Sleep Bratting

We've all heard of sleep talking and sleep walking. But wouldn't it be strange if some mischievous girl were to start being defiant in her sleep? I experienced this a few nights ago, when I woke myself up in the middle of the night saying an angry “no!” In response to what, I'm not sure. I must have been dreaming about something horribly unfair being done to me, though. :-)

This entry won't be very long, as I have a lot of reading to get done. I do have a few exciting, spanking related things coming up, though. My next shoot with Realspankings is this Thursday.

Also, I had mentioned a while ago, before Shadow Lane, that I would be doing an interview with Richard Windsor. That didn't end up happening in Vegas because of our busy schedules, so we decided to do it a little different way. That will be up soon and I will post the link to it then.

I hope everyone is enjoying their week! I can't believe it's already November and getting dark at 5 pm. It may be helpful for the farmers, but I like it to still be light as I'm coming home from my day. Hmph!

Tricks and Treats

Well, another Halloween has come and gone. I remember being so excited for this holiday growing up. I would pick out my costume months in advance, go to class parties, trick-or-treat for hours.

I even remember sneaking into my older sister's room one night to steal some of her candy stash (I always ate mine faster than she did).

This year wasn't quite as exciting, but I still managed to have some fun. Danny and I went to a kinky Halloween party Friday night, and I got a nice, hard belting that I still have a tiny bruise from. I'd really been craving a hard spanking all week (school has been stressful!) and so it felt good to fall asleep with a warm bottom that night.

Yesterday, I had a scary movie night with some friends and watched The Fog and Quarantine. The latter was the scariest and I actually had trouble sleeping! I don't know why I torture myself with scary movies, but I love when I can find a good one. Any recommendations?

On a different note, my friend Henry Higgins visited again a little while ago, and we had fun with some role play spankings. He brought me a genuine British school uniform and I got to feel the slipper for the first time. It really stings! I was very red and sore by the end.
I hope everyone had a safe and slightly scandalous weekend!

The Matter at Hand

First of all, thank you to everyone who participated in LOL Day! The comments made my day a lot better. :-) Now, onto that matter. . .

Being human means that we are inherently attracted to certain features on other humans. We notice nice smiles, good hair, smooth skin, and body shape. One psychological study found that a symmetrical face was the most appealing even to young infants, who would focus their gaze on the symmetrical picture for seconds longer than those that were less balanced.

With all of the attractive features to choose from, some people may find it hard to believe that the thing I notice first and am drawn to are large, masculine hands.

There's just something about them. I think about what they can do: hold me tight, make me feel safe, fix things around the house, play music, operate machines, give a firm handshake, or hold me down during a firm spanking.

I've been guilty of checking out the hands of my male classmates during lectures, and if I like what I see, I'm more likely to talk to them or send them a smile.

It may be strange, or picky, but it's a fact. Do any of you have a similar attraction, or something uniquely different?
Let's see a show of hands! What a nice show that would be. :-)

Loving those Lurkers

Hello everyone!

Since I've had this blog up for less than a year, this will be my first Love Our Lurkers Day. I've always liked the idea, and I remember leaving a few comments on my favorite blogs years ago, when I was an avid lurker! It felt good to make my presence known to the blog writers I appreciated so much.

Since starting this blog (and looking at the handy Statcounter), I know that I have a lot more readers than commenters. So, if you feel so inclined, I would love to receive comments from any lovely lurkers that may be around. If you'd rather just send an email, I love getting those too!

spankingsophie@gmail.com

I've gotten to know so many great people through creating this blog, and I really do thank any and all of you who stop by to read.

<3

Implement Madness

We all have our favorites and (more importantly) our least favorites. Some prefer leather over wood, some despise canes, some limit themselves to hand only. This is a prime example of just how differentiated our little community can be.

Here are a few of my personal favorites:

1. Hand- This will always be my favorite, The intimacy involved in skin-to-skin contact, the spontaneity and constant availability, the large range from soft, sensual pats to hard, stinging slaps. Mmmm.

2. Belt- So domestically classic and perfect for my headspace. The belt is in my fantasies constantly. The stern look, the belt being unbuckled, slipping slowly (yet quickly) through the belt loops, the folding over, the rolling up of sleeves. The belt epitomizes manly dominance and causes my stomach to flip.

3. Cane- This satisfies my less frequent desire for cold, detached discipline. There is nothing friendly or intimate about the cane, and that's why I love it. It stings immensely and leaves an after burn that can be reignited easily by sitting. Plus, it leaves lovely marks. :-)

It's kind of funny that my top three favorite implements are the four letter words. Perhaps that's appropriate, seeing as I feel like screaming other four letter words during particularly hard swats!

I do probably deserve a harsher spanking with some of the above implements for waiting nearly two weeks to post a blog. It really is important to me to keep up with my rules, so I apologize for that.

This past weekend, my good friend Malignus came to stay with me, and we had two days full of spanking and fun. Also, Danny and I uploaded a couple more clips to our store, including another week of discipline diary as well as a double belting we filmed with Kat and Kyle in Vegas. Free trailer can be seen here!

Just Another Sunday- And Pictures!

There isn't anything new or exciting going on here, but I thought I'd blog seeing as I've finished all of my homework for the day (Oh yeah, and I'm supposed to blog once a week, according to my rules!). As I'm sure all bloggers know, it is sometimes a struggle to come up with something to write about when you're just going through the daily grind. Of course, I wish I had some really mind blowing event to tell you about.

Note to self: do more mind blowing things for the sake of your blog.

Do any of you have something you'd like me to write about? I know Michael requested that I write about my latest shoot in the new studio.

I always have a great time shooting with RS, but this time was especially fun because I got to mix things up a little bit. The studio is a mansion with an outdoor pool, jacuzzi, and some tree-covered acreage. All of this creates amazing shoot opportunities!

I have to admit, I found myself a little disoriented in the new space. I had just gotten used to the old, factory-style studio (which I constantly got lost in) and now I was navigating my way through room after room, trying to find the set I was shooting on.

The first shoot we did was very true to my real life: I fell asleep while studying and was awoken by Mr. M, who proceeded to strap me (rude awakening!).

While the strapping wasn't overly hard, it caused a tiny abrasion on one of my cheeks and bled a little bit. It happens, and I wasn't worried, but the crew decided to do my second scene over clothes. It was an old fashioned caning where I received a dozen strokes over my skirt. That was the first time I had been caned over clothes, and it was definitely a different sensation. Less sting, more thud.

In the third scene, I got to dress as a french maid and go outside to pick a switch (a fetish of mine, so it made me happy). The maid outfit was left over from a feature film that RS did a while back, called Maid For Punishment.

Also, Danny and I have been filming a lot of great content lately for Clips4Sale. Our latest vids include a good girl spanking and a double daughter spanking we filmed in Vegas. Trailers on Spankingtube!

The Age Old Question

There are a few questions I get asked repeatedly by people who write to me, message me, etc. One of the more recent ones is “How long do you plan on being a spanking model?” Often times, I'll get comments on how young I am and asked if I was spanked when I was a child. It got me thinking about the age factor and just how it plays into this kink of ours.

I've heard from several people that in the spanking video business, a woman can only model as a bottom until a certain age before she has to start topping. I don't like that idea. I don't have anything against female tops, but I'm certainly not one of them. It's unfortunate that there's an age limit of female bottoms in videos, but it's not realistic in the real world. I know that when I'm ninety years old, I'll still have the desire to be spanked. Hopefully I can find some willing gentleman then, but we'll see. Speaking of gentleman, how unfair is it that they're still in their spanking prime much later in life? Such injustice in this world.

Anyway, back to the present. It's a week after the start of my discipline diary, and I've been doing pretty well. Not perfect, though, and I didn't follow every rule completely. Danny and I sat down yesterday to go over my list, and I was punished for not completing all of it. How was I punished, you may ask? Well, we decided to turn the camera on during our discussion, so you can see it at our Clips4Sale store. There should be a preview posted soon on Spankingtube as well.

Here's me being in a less remorseful mood after my spanking when Danny was trying to take my picture. :-)

My most recent shoot with RealSpankings was a lot of fun, and I got to see their beautiful new studio, a lovely mansion with an outdoor pool and lots of acreage for outdoor shoots! I got to play a schoolgirl and a naughty french maid who is made to cut a switch from outside. I'll write more on that, and more Clips4Sale updates in another post.

Hope everyone had a spanktastic weekend! Oh, by the way. . . I love getting comments, just so everyone knows. :-)

Discipline Diary

September has been a stressful month at school, and it's the first time I've had to juggle my academic life with my less-vanilla, online life. I realize, of course, that academics need to be my first priority. Senior year would be a bad time to start slacking!

But doing spanking blogs and videos is something I enjoy a lot, and don't want to give up. With all of that in mind, I decided to ask Danny for some help in managing my time and keeping me motivated so that I can get everything done without having to give things up. We decided that I would start keeping track of this through a discipline diary.

I've already blogged about the various types of spankings that exist, and discipline is a big one. I've heard a lot of people say that spanking can't be used to effectively discipline a spanko, because they enjoy it too much. I think there is some truth to that, but I don't completely agree.

For me, knowing that someone is keeping track of what I do and holding me accountable to the goals I set for myself is both comforting and helpful. I can tell myself that I will get my essay done by Friday, but then easily make an excuse and give myself too much slack. If someone else knows what I need to be doing, I'm more likely to get it done. Exercising regularly is easier if you do it with a friend, and I see this in much the same way. If I don't follow the rules I've laid out, there is an added element of guilt because I am disappointing myself.

I had already been given a few rules by my friend Malignus, and I told Danny everything I wanted to focus on for this semester specifically. Together, we made 5 rules that I will be held accountable for:

1. 5 minutes or more playing guitar, 4 days a week.

2. 1 hour of productive school-related work every day.

3. 1 blog entry per week, and 1 hour of maintenance / replies to blog comments.

4. Once a week, log in to both bank accounts, review card activity, pay bills if necessary.

5. 6 meals per week must be made at home.

I'm happy with this list because the rules are not too overwhelming, and they cover some basic problems I've been having with procrastination and time management. Number one is there because I've wanted to play guitar (I used to play the violin) for a long time and have trouble remembering to practice. The others are pretty self explanatory. So now that I've posted them here, more people can help to keep me accountable!

Danny has said that he will check in once a week and I will keep track of things in a journal. If I'm not doing so well, you can probably guess what happens. We'll see if it helps. :-)

Have any of you tried something similar to this, and has it been effective? I hope everyone's weekend was great. Danny and I went to a small, local spanking party Friday night, and it was a lot of fun catching up with a few Shadow Laners and getting to play. Back to school tomorrow!

More Tidbits

I know, all this Shadow Lane talk is probably getting old, but I forgot to mention a few things:

Last Monday, when we were still in Vegas, Danny and I met up with Kyle and Kat to do some videos for Clips4Sale. We all had a great time and got some excellent footage with lots of variety: Danny and Kyle spanking Kat and I, and Paul (the wonderful host of many a SL suite party) spanking me.

Speaking of that last one, Kyle just posted it on Spankingtube, so people can go and see it for free. We had a lot of fun with that one, and I play the part of an innocent church-going girl who answers a Craigslist ad to keep Paul company. He asked for a girl who likes OTK, but I'm far too innocent to know anything about that (yeah, unlikely, but enjoy!). There's great spanking in it, too. :-)
Also, a new clip is now up on Clips4Sale. It doesn't include me, but it's a great video (also taken during Shadow Lane) starring Danny and Lily Starr. In this one, Danny spanks Lily for being too promiscuous at her first spanking party and agreeing to play with all the creepy guys (who definitely made an appearance during the party, but I won't name names!). She gets a hard hand spanking and then the belt, and it's in high definition, too!

And as long as you're in a spanking video mood, check out my latest update on RealSpankingInstitute, where I get the belt for sneaking into a back room with another student, Monica. My next shoot with them is coming up, and will be in their new studio, which has lots of opportunities for outdoor shoots!
I'm slowly getting over party drop and getting back into the swing of things. I came home to a lot of school responsibilities; I just finished writing a paper on culture and reworking my resume (I've never needed to make one until now!). Why can't life just be rainbows, gum drops, and spanking parties all the time?

Shadow Lane Party- Sunday

Danny and I lingered in bed until around 11, when we showered and went downstairs to get breakfast at Cafe Siena yet again. The staff there must have hated us. As soon as we arrived, we ran into a big group of friends and attempted to slide two tables together to accommodate everyone. A hostess quickly strolled over to rebuke us, so we sat at two different tables. After we were seated, Erica and J came in and joined us; it was great to sit and chat for a bit.

After that, we only had a little time to rest before heading to StrictDave's CP Court up in Tom's suite. It was great to watch couples accusing each other of petty crimes, and the sweetest one was when Jenni Mack accused Miss Chris of being the “best, most wonderful Ma'am ever”. The sentence was one big hug. :-)

While I was watching the Court, FiremanChris was texting me that he was almost back from the airport, and I was to meet him in his room for our scene. Danny went down to socialize at the casino's bar while I went up to Chris's room. We had a great scene, complete with a hand spanking, some corner time, and then some time with his evil wooden hairbrush. He was kind and didn't use it full force, but it still stung! It was great to relax and talk with him after, too.

I had one more pre -arranged play date before the suite parties that night, and it was with Jersey John, a good friend of Danny's who I instantly enjoyed spending time with (he had a deliciously crass sense of humor and was easy to make conversation with). I decided to head back to my room to rest a bit before that, so I got on the elevator to my floor.

As I got off, I saw Keith Jones waiting to get on. Many ladies can attest to the fact that Keith is a major heartthrob in the spanking world, and I had wanted to play with him for a long time. We had discussed it earlier, but both of us had been keeping busy. Not wanting to lose out on the opportunity, I boldly walked up to him and tapped him on the shoulder.

“When are we going to play?”

“Are you busy now?”

“No.”

“Alright, then, let's go to my room.”

And off we went to his room, where we had a pleasant conversation and I went over his knee for a wonderfully relaxing and gentle hand spanking. Just what I wanted. :-)

I made it back to the room in time for Jersey John to stop by and escort me to his room. We chatted and he fed me chocolate chip cookies (I immediately liked him a lot more). I went over his knee and he spanked me with his hand (which was huge and heavy, and felt very hard on my already sore bottom!) and I got a little with his hairbrush too.

When we had finished, John and I met Danny and GenSass down in Matt's suite, where we relaxed for a while before going down to eat dinner with a large, fun group at the Mexican place in the Casino. I was already feeling tired by this point, but there was still one more night of suite parties to go. Up in our room, I changed into a plaid, woolen mini skirt along with a black top and patent leather heels.

Soon after arriving in Tom's suite, Tony (the organizer of FMS, not Shadow Lane) asked if I would like a caning. I had done well in pacing myself with hand-only spankings, so I was ready to play a little harder, and agreed to the caning.

I was bent over the back of the couch, my skirt lifted, and before I knew it I glanced back to see that Danny had also grabbed a cane; the two of them were switching off the cane strokes! It turned into a competition of sorts, seeing which of them could hit the exact same spot two times in a row. Bill joined in after a bit and each of them gave me a few final, hard strokes. I sat with Danny on the couch and cuddled a bit after, but then I was up and socializing again.

I think it was about this time in the evening that I was chatting with Erica and J and decided that Erica should get spanked by Danny once again (she did get me in trouble on the first night,after all). So, being the helpful girl that I am, I handed her a glass of water and pointed to Danny, who was behind the bar at the time. Erica flicked some of the water in his face and within seconds she was being pulled off of her stool and bent over the couch.

Meanwhile, I sat with J who was giving me a hard time about “throwing his girlfriend under the bus.” He then proceeded to grab a pile of canes from a nearby table and pass them out to all the Tops, telling them to take a turn on Erica. I stopped him and said, “And you said it was ME throwing her under the bus?”

I got a couple more fun hand spankings before heading to Paul's suite, where they were playing a game of Spanko Blackjack. I joined in for a while, and Danny came into the suite shortly after with AZ Carolyn. I remember starting to feel worn out around then, but I was hesitant to end the night because it was the last party, and I wanted to make the most of it!

At some point, Erica and J came in to the room, and things began to wind down. After lots of hugs and goodbyes in the room and at the elevator, Danny and I collapsed into bed once more.

While most people were already gone or leaving early Monday morning, our flight wasn't until late Monday evening, so we had the whole next day to pack up, meet with a few friends, and do some shooting for Clips4Sale. I will write about that in my next post!

I did want to quickly thank everyone who made my first Shadow Lane experience such an amazingly unforgettable one. I didn't get to play with everyone I wanted to and I would have loved to have more talking time with people, but I fit in what I could and I'm very happy with how it worked out. I miss everyone already and can't wait to do it again. :-D

Shadow Lane Party- Saturday

Sorry for the delay in getting these out, guys, I was swamped with schoolwork immediately after returning from this wonderful trip! Please “bare” with me. ;-)

Danny woke me up around 11 am and suggested we go down to the hot tub before breakfast, which sounded like a good idea until I actually walked outside and hit the wall of heat. Something about this party I noticed right away was that it was all very contained in the hotel. Everything we could ever want or need was right there: casino, bowling alley, bar, several restaurants, even a movie theater. I probably exited the building only twice the entire weekend.

Anyway, GenSass, her hubby, and Gia met us down by the hot tub. We all decided within seconds that we should switch over to the cold pool, and so we all rambunctiously splashed around (actually, I sat quietly on the edge like a good girl while Danny doused water on innocent bystanders) before deciding to get some breakfast at Cafe Siena.

Back up in our room, I showered and changed into a purple and gray sundress before we headed up to the SSNY suite for their afternoon party. It was a great crowd, and they played some of their hilarious spoof videos in which a spanking bottom gets violated, and then another one about bratting. As I sat at a table and chatted with Iggy and Sarah, I was texting Fireman Chris, who I had chatted with for a long time before the party. We were both eager to set up a play date, so I told him where the room was and he arrived a little later.

The scene we had discussed was a discipline scene, and we had agreed to make it private so I could better get into the head space. Since everyone was still in suite party mode, though, we decided to save the discipline part for later and Chris instead found an empty spot on one of the beds to give me a quick hand spanking (which are, as everyone knows, the best kind of introduction!). Afterward, I mingled a bit more and ran into Sarah again

She had just finished playing with Djinn, whom she highly recommended. Never being one to to ignore a good Spanker recommendation, I walked up to Djinn and chatted a bit, which ultimately resulted in me being led down to his room for a play session. That guy really had a way of getting into my head and making me feel ten times smaller than I already am, and I came out of it feeling very blissful and wobbly.

Danny tracked me down again, and we headed up to our room to lay down for a bit and get dressed for the formal dinner. The theme for the night was Mad Men, and I wore a yellow and black 60's style dress that I paired with Hounds-tooth heels and some pearl earrings that Danny had bought for me down in the hotel gift shop (I know. What a charmer). :-)

The dinner was great, there was good food, better company, and some fun dancing going on. At one point, Danny dragged me over to a chair next to the dance floor and turned me over his knee for a brisk hand spanking. You would think that would get a few looks, but it's funny how normal it becomes for a spanking to occur anywhere on these weekends!

After dinner, it was time to hit up the suite parties once again. We started off in the Northern Spanking suite, where I chatted with Paul, Stephen, and Leia Ann Woods. They were all lovely to talk with as always, and Paul told me he would love to shoot with me if they came back next year. I told him that sounded like a lot of fun. :-)

We ended up back in Tom's suite, where everyone tended to gather toward the end of the night. I was sitting on the couch talking to Ann, a woman who had come to Shadow Lane for the first time, when StrictDave came to sit next to me and asked if I was ready to play.

I had heard excellent things about his spanking style, so I had asked him early on if he would be willing to play when he had the chance. Both him and I were eager to do a discipline scene, so I briefly told him about some issues I was having (procrastination, having trouble saying “no”, really any excuse to get spanked) and he pulled me over his lap. He spanked me firmly with his hand, pausing intermittently to lecture and rub a bit. It was great fun!

I was feeling pretty sore by this point (I should point out that I was very careful to rub lotion into my bottom and use ice each night before bed), but I had my eye on one last play date before the night was over, and that was the infamous flogger Fineous. We went into a bedroom and I sprawled out on my stomach while he worked his magic, flogging from my toes to my neck. I was nearly snoring by the time he was done, so after we said our good nights, Danny and I headed up to the room to rest up for the next day.

Shadow Lane Party- Friday

I think a layer of my skin may have been spanked off. But oh, was it worth it! I am slowly coming down from a wonderful weekend in Vegas, meeting so many people who I hope to remain friends with for a long time. Danny and I woke up at the crack of dawn on Friday to catch our plane, and we arrived at the SunCoast Hotel around nine in the morning. Danny immediately ran into some of his friends (the man knows EVERYONE there) and we had a low-key lunch.

While we were eating, a man approached our table and asked if I was Sophie. It was Michael, a fan of the RealSpankings sites who I had been emailing back and forth with for a while before the party. It is always nice to be able to put a face to the conversations! Afterward, we went up to the room to nap in anticipation of the festivities that would be keeping us up late. I had heard enough about these parties to know that I could not get through them without staying well rested!

I've also heard others say what a blur the parties are, and it's true. Though I had a great time with each person I played with, I can't for the life of me remember each one perfectly, so I may leave some people out; please forgive me if I do, as it's nothing personal! After our nap, Danny and I headed down to the casino's coffee shop, where there was a small gathering of people from the WorldSpankingForum (organized by Michael). We chatted there for a bit before heading up to our room to shoot a clip for our store with Bill and Katee, who I had been talking with before the party as well.

I had vowed to myself that I wouldn't do a lot of shooting while at the party; I had to pace myself, after all! But Danny and I got some great spanking video footage, and the full video will be on my Clips4Sale store soon!

After that, it was time to eat a quick dinner and head up to the Vendor's Fair in the ballroom.

It was fun to walk around the booths and shake hands with some people I recognized, as well as meeting many new faces. I'd like to take a second to emphasize just how friendly the Northern Spanking Group is. They are all so pleased to be among friends and are completely courteous.

I got to briefly talk with Jules from SSNY, who told me that someone had recommended me as a possible subject for one of their discipline videos. I would have loved to take the opportunity, but I didn't want to fit that into an already spank-filled weekend. I told her I would love to if I was ever in her area. Let's see, who else? Lily Starr and Sarah Gregory both had booths and were both pleasant to chat with. I got to meet Chelsea Pfeiffer and Abigail Whittaker, both of whom I have admired from their videos.

I was REALLY excited when I saw Erica Scott and J walk in. Erica was immediately off greeting and hugging people, but Danny introduced me to J, who promptly walked me over to meet Erica. If there was one person I was looking forward to meeting the most, it was her, and I gave her a big hug. As everyone is aware, I admire this lady so much. Her wit, her sass, not to mention her legendary bionic bottom, it's all more noticeable in person! She introduced me to Andy, a lovely gentleman who I played with later that night at a suite party.

After the Vendor's Fair, we went up to our room to freshen up and headed out to the suite parties. We started out at Carolyn's suite, as it was her birthday, and then headed up to the big party in Tom's room. It was hoppin', and I got to play several times, and have a lot of playful fun, including the incident Erica writes on her blog where she poured water on Danny's head (while I was over his lap!).

We then went down to Paul's suite to end the night, and Danny went off to play with Lily while I stayed and talked. I played a few more times, including getting a few swats with a cricket bat that the other girls were afraid to try (I always love a spanking challenge!)

I can't remember a lot of other specifics, only that I felt instantly comfortable and happy with the group that was there. We stayed awake socializing until about 2:30 am, when we stumbled back up to our room. I fell asleep within seconds of hitting the pillow.

Off to Shadowlane!

This will be my last post before heading to Vegas for the big party Friday morning; I can't wait to meet some of you there! And for those of you who cannot attend, I will be sure and do a detailed write-up after the party, as do many other attendees.

Looking back, I feel very lucky to have had the opportunities in the spanking community present themselves so early on. I never would have thought that I would be attending a party like this at the age of 21, especially one that I have been reading about and wishing I could go to since the age of 15! Along with that excitement does come nerves, and I hope I can relax enough to enjoy my time there without getting too overwhelmed. We'll see!

Keep your eye out for an interview I'm planning on doing with Richard Windsor while there, as well as some new and exciting clips on my clips4sale store. Speaking of which, Danny and I just shot another one recently which is going to be really good. It's a spanking I received the day after a party we attended. I had told him I was going to find my shoes, and ten minutes later he comes out to find me distracted, cuddled up to a guy on the couch (When will I learn?) High def, lots of angles, and awesome spanking action, of course! Some previews of the clips we've done so far can be found on Spankingtube. And another great Realspankings video has been released, too. It's from the Faces series, and it's a split screen showing both my face and bottom as I am handspanked, strapped, and then caned by Danny for some real life issues.

Have a great Labor Day!

p.s. I'm packing for the weekend and just stuffed 10 pairs of panties into my suitcase. Too many? Perhaps... but better safe than sorry!

Busy Bee Getting Stung!

I apoligize for not updating in quite a few days; school has officially started back up, and I wasn’t prepared for the rush of book buying and schedule rearranging! If I may just indulge in a mini rant for a moment: why is it that college textbooks are so damned expensive? It always puts me in a bad mood when I’m writing a $250 check for something I know couldn’t have cost more than 45 cents to produce in mass. And the professors are always telling us that we must get the latest edition, because there are some things added to it that haven’t appeared in the last, cheaper addition. Personally, I could care less if the chapters have slightly different page numbers. Like poor college students really need another way to waste money. Okay, rant over. :-)

This is actually my last year of college, so I suppose I should just enjoy this precious time before entering the real working world. I’ll try and let go of some of the stress. Speaking of letting go of stress, spankings are a great way to go about accomplishing that! So I of course have to make sure I make plenty of time for them. I am so, so, so excited about the upcoming Shadowlane party! Only one more week to go. I will have to take some of the advice of well meaning friends and be sure to pace myself throughout the weekend.

I just got home from a spanking shoot this morning, in which I was belted, caned, and paddled. I bent over to snap a picture of the results a few minutes ago, but the marks were already mostly faded. I guess it’s convenient that my bottom doesn’t hold marks for very long, but it would be nice to have proof of my spankings every once in a while! There is still a little redness to be seen, though. I’m no Erica Scott yet. ;-)
Also, please be sure and check out this wonderful interview I did with Suzy on her blog; I really enjoyed answering her questions and was appreciative of the lovely write-up she posted! Mr. M from RealSpankings also did a little intro post about me on his blog. I hope everyone’s week is going well!

Clips4Sale!

I have some exciting news. Danny Chrighton and I recently bought a new camera and some studio lights, and we've been having fun recording some hard spankings. So much fun that we have decided to open our own Clips4Sale store. :-)

This is something I have wanted to do for a long time. While both of us really enjoy filming for other companies, it isn't quite the same as getting to create our own scenarios and
sharing a glimpse into one of our favorite activities. The clips we have made so far are great quality, shot from several angles with some storyline, but mostly hard and very real spanking. So far, no stories have been fabricated, we're just showing two genuine spankos doing That Thing We Do. I really hope people will enjoy watching them as much as we enjoy making them! I would love to hear feedback as well as any suggestions for future scenes.

So, without further ado. . . here is Spanking Sophie Gray

All Sorts of Spanking

I've had a lot of discussions with fellow spankos about the different kinds of spankings that exist. When I first became involved in the scene, it seemed to me that it was fairly straightforward; spankings were either for punishment or for fun. As I explored further, however, I realized that is hardly the case!

When broken down, it seems as though there could be hundreds of different types of spankings. Different impetuses, styles, dynamics, and severity all come into play. My good friend Malignus started a group on Fetlife called All Sorts of Spanking, in which he discusses the types of spankings he has encountered throughout the years. The list includes ageplay, arbitrary, calming, chastisement, demonstrative, erotic, fun, mandatory, maintenance, milestone, motivational, preventive, reaffirmative, reminder, roleplay, romantic, sensual, special occasion, therapeutic, and threshold. Say that three times fast!

While a lot of these may overlap in some ways, I think there is a lot of truth to the fact that spanking can be quite diverse, and that's what makes it so versatile and exciting. I've heard some kinksters in the BDSM community say that spankos are very specific, and picky about what they like. That may be true, but we do like our variety too! I can get equal joy and fulfillment out of a therapeutic punishment spanking, a light hearted birthday spanking, or quick reminding slaps to the bottom throughout the day. I love arbitrary spankings too, because who needs a real reason to give or get a good spanking, anyway? I mean, I am breathing and blinking, and those are certainly spankable offenses. :-)

What are your favorite, or most commonly practiced types of spanking? Are there certain kinds that you haven't yet experienced, but are on your spanko to-do list?

Also, Part 2 of my RSI scene is now out. In it, Danny gives me a hard strapping and then puts me in timeout to think about my behavior. This was a hard one to take, and my reactions were very genuine, let me assure you! Take a look. :-)

New Computer and RSI updates

I am currently typing on my brand spanking new computer, and I'm loving it. :-) It's taken a while to get all of the settings back the way I like them, but I'm definitely enjoying the faster speeds and new gadgets that weren't present on my three-year-old machine. I also got my car window replaced, as well as the majority of other possessions that were stolen in the computer bag. Thank you all so much for the well wishes, they made me feel a lot better. :-)

My summer vacation is coming to an end already, I can't believe it! Soon I'll be having to buy books and attend classes and deal with homework and assignments. Ugh. I hope I can find the motivation before then. Is there some way to be motivated to keep on track with schoolwork? Hmm...

Speaking of which, another scene of mine came out a couple days ago on RealSpankingsInstitute. This is from my second time shooting with them, and is Part 1 of a two part scene in which I'm hand spanked for slacking off. Part 2 (a strapping) should follow soon! Go and check it out. :-)
With the start of school, of course, comes the Shadowlane party, in just three weeks! I am so excited to meet all of you who will be there. And I guess I need to go shopping for a good schoolgirl outfit, as that seems to be the theme of the party this year. Hope everyone's week is going swimmingly!

Broken Window, Stolen Laptop, Sad Sophie

After going to see Dinner for Shmucks on Thursday night (funny movie, but not worth what happened later!), I came out of the theater only to find that the side window of my car had been shattered, and my laptop bag was missing from the back seat. It was quite a stressful night, but things are slowly getting resolved, and I'll be getting my car window fixed tomorrow.

But my laptop is gone. :-( It really makes me angry that someone saw it fit to steal a laptop (only to sell it for not that much money, I'm sure, as it was three years old) while I had to lose several of my documents and pictures. But it happens. And the bright side is that I get to buy a new computer!

It will take some time to shop for one and get all of that squared away, though, so I wanted to quickly post and say that future posts will be delayed a little bit. Don't worry, it sucks for me too. I have been suffering from computer withdrawal already! So, that's what's going on in Sophie Land. I will see you all soon. :-)

Blissipline and Funishment

Many of you have probably heard of the popular Facebook-style website for fetishists called Fetlife. I've greatly enjoyed meeting and keeping in touch with friends through there, and I've also had a lot of fun updating my fetish list and adding pictures to my profile. The fetish lists on there can easily become out of control, as you can add everything from being into “a man rolling up his sleeves” to being into receiving “big wads of cold hard cash” (both of which are on my fetish list!). Another one of my favorites is on my friend Carolyn808's profile. After her list of spanking related fetishes that she is into, she has listed that she is “curious about being a good girl”. :-D

Anyhow, as I was perusing through some more fetishes recently, I found two that I think are both witty and accurate for many spankos. I am now into both blissipline and funishment. Now, these can of course signify different things to different people. For me, they are representative of just how much I crave that feeling of being properly disciplined or punished. As much as I may protest and struggle, it is something I would not want to go through life without. When I can reach that wonderful subspace, during a hard and thorough spanking, I am very much in bliss. And then there is always the punishment that is just for fun, two spankos truly enjoying what they have in common; that's a great feeling too.

It does make me grateful that I was born with this unique quality, and that there are so many others who I can share that joy with. Sure, it is sometimes more difficult to find a fulfilling relationship, or to be completely honest with others. But the glass is more than half full of that wonderful fluttery feeling in my stomach, the warm afterglow on my bottom, and the simple fact that it's just so damn FUN.

Meeting Danny and some random thoughts on Public Spankings

I was looking through some of my backed up folders on my computer today, and I found a picture I had taken of myself on my webcam. It's a little less than a year old, and was taken on the first evening I ever met Danny Chrighton. We had corresponded via Fetlife for some time, and decided to meet at a cafe. I was pretty starstruck by him, as I had seen him in some of my favorite spanking videos and had read about him in various blogs. Out meeting went really well, and I was able to talk about the spanking industry and everyone in it to my heart's delight. Danny ended up turning me over his knee and giving me a quick hand spanking right there in the cafe (it was a slow time and no one was around, we had the whole little room to ourselves. I think the waitress may have heard us, though, because she had a knowing smile on her face when she came back with our order!). Afterwards, we went back to his house, where he proceeded to spank me with a few of his implements. I think a small wooden paddle and cane were used.

It was a great visit, and upon my return home, I immediately got on the computer to chat with Malignus about the evening, and wanted to show him the results of the spanking. The marks had already faded quite a bit, but I was feeling pretty content regardless. :-)
I was very excited about being spanked in public, even though it was short and sweet. The idea of it makes my stomach flutter, and it happens a lot in my fantasies. However, I am very hesitant about it outside of my fantasies. I am so afraid of getting caught, or someone noticing and judging the situation too quickly. It could end badly. I guess it goes along with my fantasy of a spanko neighborhood. I love the idea of doing something bad in public, only to be dragged over to a bench and pulled OTK for a brisk spanking. If only the rest of society would understand...

Have any of you experienced public spankings? Did you get caught? Do they have any place in your fantasy world?

Appreciation

I've heard mixed opinions regarding whether or not a spanking is equally beneficial to both the Top and the bottom. In other words, if a spankee receives a spanking from her Top, should she then return the favor somehow, to show her appreciation?

I can see both sides. Spanking does tend to be a little one sided. The Spanker is the one taking control, doing the spanking, giving the lecture, being caring and supportive with the aftercare. It's a lot of work! Meanwhile, the spankee does what is asked of her (in some cases), maybe struggles, gives in, feels the release, gives over her trust to the one spanking her. It may seem like she's getting the better deal. But then again, those who enjoy giving spankings crave giving that support and receiving that trust just as much as we spankees enjoy it the other way, don't they?

I do like to show my appreciation to those who have given me so much, spanked me in just the way I needed it, and were there for me afterwards. I really don't mind showing this verbally, or giving them a back rub or back scratch (Spankers I have encountered really freakin' love their back scratches. Anyone else notice that?). I do this of my own accord, and because I feel close to them and genuinely appreciate what they've done for me. That being said, I do not like the feeling of obligation that may come with that. It somewhat cheapens the experience for me if I am expected to give something in return for receiving a spanking. I think that both parties are able to get something out of TTWD, and maybe we can just leave it at that. :-)

What do you think? When is it necessary to show your appreciation for your Spanker, or for your spankee? Do both people in the dynamic benefit equally, albeit in different ways?

And speaking of appreciation, I really do value those of you who choose to keep coming back to read my blog, and comment. You guys are my motivation to keep posting. :-)

Spanking Shoots and Wisdom Teeth. . . What?

Yes, they're totally unrelated, except when describing my last week! I had the pleasure of shooting with AEG studios for my second spanking shoot this last Wednesday, and it was a blast. There was a last minute cancellation of the Spanker I was going to film with, and so the amazing Danny Chrighton got to fill in. We had a great time doing some schoolgirl scenes followed by an intense real discipline scene in which our chemistry really shows. I'm excited for that one to come out. :-)

Until then, though, another clip of mine was released today on RealSpankings. It is from my very first shoot, and is a hard belting given to me by Mr. Masterson. This is a great clip because angles of both my face and bottom are shown as I receive the strokes. Go check it out!
As fun as the shoot was, I had to go get my wisdom teeth extracted the following day. I have been loopy on pain killers since then. I guess it's not ALWAYS fun to have your cheeks sore and swollen. Ah well. I should be feeling better soon. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

Disappointment

It's one of the worst feelings. In the spanking world, it often comes into play as the reason behind a spanking, and catalyzes feelings of remorse and guilt for a submissive spankee. There is another type of disappointment that I have struggled with, though, that is even more difficult to deal with. It's the letdown of expectations; the knowledge that I will not be getting a promised spanking.

Any spankee out there can probably relate to the fact that it is sometimes really hard to ask for a spanking. I mean, I'm a spanko. Anyone with access to this information knows that I enjoy getting spanked. Part of the mindset for me, though, involves the Spanker initiating said spanking. When he is in complete control, I can find comfort in that. In fact, I find so much comfort in that that a promised spanking is very exciting to me, and something I think about somewhat obsessively until it happens. There are feelings of nervous anticipation (How hard will it be? Will I cry? I hope he doesn't use the wooden paddle) mixed with the excitement and security of knowing I will soon be melting into the intense pain and getting that release that comes with it. All of this builds up in my head to the point where I am prepared for it to happen, and on some level, kind of need it to happen in order to be satisfied.

If the spanking is then called off, that security turns to insecurity (Why doesn't he want to spank me anymore? Did I do something?). Don't get me wrong, I realize this is very irrational at times. Often, a spanking is called off because the Spanker is not feeling well, is exhausted, has something pressing to do, or simply forgot a trivial threat which I took more seriously. It doesn't matter; it is still a form of sub drop for me. Maybe because I crave the attention of a good spanking. The caring tone, the aftercare, the fuzzy feeling of being loved and looked after. I imagine all of that and then it vanishes just as quickly.

This post is a bit of a downer, I suppose, and this has not even happened to me very recently. But it's all part of my curiosity as I explore the spanking world more and more. If you're a spankee, have you experienced the disappointment of not receiving a spanking? How have you dealt with it? Is it safest not to have any expectations? And if you're a Spanker, do you ever notice this in your spankee? Is there a similar disappointment felt on the other side of things? Inquiring minds would like to know. :-)

**EDIT**This post is simply a topic for discussion and not a crisis occurring in my life. I've been receiving a few concerned messages. I am just fine. :-)

Punishment from Uncle Eric

Warning: lengthy post! But you should read it all anyway. :-)

In the spanko and kink community, I often hear about those who have stellar reputations as being the ones to play with; the Dominants or Tops who have flawless technique and the ability to take you to those special places. Uncle Eric was a name I had heard early on, and after observing several of his scenes, I made it my mission to set a play date with him.

It wasn't easy. Our schedules kept clashing, and he is a busy man, flying out to participate in several shoots and events. Finally, after several email and phone exchanges, we were able to set a time and place. It was perfect timing, too, as work obligations meant he was moving to the East Coast in just a few days. This was my chance!

He had told me in our earlier conversations that I was to make a list of transgressions that I felt I should be punished for before we met. Since the scene was scheduled fairly last minute, though, I had not completed the task, and in the car before getting out to meet him, I quickly scribbled down some of my misdemeanors onto a sticky note. At the top, I wrote, “Forgetting to make this list.” :-)

Our scene took place at a house party, and since it was his last event before moving, he had another naughty lady to punish alongside me. Right from the start, I got exactly what I wanted and needed from Uncle Eric. He could read me very well. Right away, he placed me over his knee and began with a hard hand spanking.

“Does this feel like a warm-up?”

“No, Sir!”

“That's right. There are no warm-ups during a punishment.”

I was then pushed roughly over the bed, where Uncle Eric skillfully applied a leather strap, cane, belt, and wooden paddle, one after the other. It was so very painful, but I was in bliss the entire time. Every stroke was perfectly placed, and I was pushed just far enough. He has this very interesting method of caning where he would place his hand on my lower back and rock my bottom back and forth while bringing the cane down with his other hand. Very cool feeling. About half way through, he noticed I was getting a little turned on (um...yeah!) and pulled me back over his knee, placing me so that I was straddling his leg. While he hairbrushed me, he would bounce his knee up and down in just the right spot. Mmm, so nice. What a gentleman. :-)

The grand finale to the punishment came and Uncle Eric led me to the bathroom, where I bent over the side of the bathtub to receive 24 strokes with the heavy bath brush. On a wet bottom, no less! Those stung more than everything else put together, and I struggled my way through them, screaming out each number as the brush landed. When it was over, I stood up on wobbly legs, savoring the wonderful, fuzzy head space. When Uncle Eric asked if I had anything to say to him, all I could utter was a weak, “Thank you, Sir.” He smiled and said, “I was looking for 'I'm sorry, Sir', but you're welcome.” I really meant it, though. It was just what the doctor ordered for this spank-happy girl. :-)

Trip to Oregon!

This past weekend I took a mini vacation with my sister to visit a friend in Portland, Oregon. It was the first time I'd ever been there, and I had a great time escaping the world of working boredom, if only for a short while. Here is what I have noticed about myself lately: when given the choice between vanilla or kinky activities on the weekend, I tend to choose the kinky activity. Strange, I know. But I have come to value the careful balance that I need to bring into my life a bit more. Spending some quality time with my friend and sister was very cathartic and reviving, not to mention the fun I always have getting to see new places. Not that Oregon is completely without kink. As we were standing in line to get breakfast one morning, I saw this poster on the building, advertising a fetish party being held that weekend:
Some of the highlights were touring a beautiful Japanese garden, followed by an amazing rose garden that was home to literally thousands of blooming roses. It smelled heavenly, and I found myself thinking it would be a wonderful place to take some red bottom pictures (at another time, of course), right up next to the rows of red, thorny flowers.
We also toured Powell's, a famously large bookstore which was very difficult to leave, especially for a book-loving English major such as myself. I also got to eat a ton of delicious, local food, although it wasn't the healthiest. One restaurant prided itself on having six different varieties of one of my favorite guilty pleasures: mac and cheese! Mmm, SO good. They even wrapped up our leftovers with tin foil made into different animal shapes. Looks like I'll need to start that exercise routine again today. Ugh.
So now that my wonderful vanilla vacation has come to an end. . . I really, really need a good spanking. Yet here I am in my apartment all by my lonesome. :-( Looks like I'll need to visit Danny very soon. Oh! I have also officially booked my room in Vegas for Shadowlane! Yay! If any of you are going, please drop me a line (or email) so that I can be sure and recognize you there. :-)

Spanking Shoot Saga- Part 2

Following the first scene, Michael asked me which implement I would like to have used on me for the second shoot. I told him I was a big fan of the belt. So, it was decided, and Betty took me back to the changing room for me to change out of my sun dress and into some black jeans and a red tank top. Coming back on set, I bent over the desk for a quick and hard belting from Mr. Masterson. Something I noticed quickly is that the scenes go very fast, and for all of the preparation, lighting, camera adjustment, etc, the actual scene is a breeze. I also noticed a difference in my pain tolerance. I could tell that the belt strokes were close to full force, yet I did not feel much pain. It's the endorphins. I knew I was on camera and was so focused on making it through the scene that the pain was really on the backburner (pun intended). :-)

The third scene was for the Institute, and I walked with Betty back to the room where they keep costumes/schoolgirl uniforms, etc, so that I could get fitted for mine. On the way back to the set, I stopped in the bathroom and looked at my bare bottom in the mirror (I always love doing this). It was reddened and slightly marked from the belt, but I was already ready to amp it up. I let Michael know that I was okay with a caning on the bare for the last scene, and he was happy to oblige. Here's one more thing I noticed. The headspace is much different during an on-camera spanking. I felt much more business-like, trying to be sure I reacted in a good way, moved the hair out of my face, paid attention to positioning. When I'm being spanked in private, I can thrash about all I'd like, plead with my Spanker, etc. This was different.

Don't get me wrong, I still had a lot of fun and enjoyed knowing that others would be watching me. But it is more of a formal environment. At one point, before the caning while Michael was scolding me, a phone went off somewhere in the studio, and we had to stop and start again a few minutes later. It is a business, after all, and not all of the models enjoy the spanking and head space as much as I do. :-) And one more thing. During that last scene, as I was dressing in my school uniform, I had the hardest time pulling up the knee socks that Betty gave me. My feet were a bit sweaty from the nerves, and the socks were very tight fitting. I kept my cool, but I found myself laughing as I watched the video later and saw Betty's impatient, yet slightly amused expression!

It was a great experience over all, though, and I've enjoyed hearing the feedback from the members and viewers. I will be shooting with them at the end of this month, and look forward to it!

Spanking Shoot Saga- Part 1

I felt a mixture of nerves and stifled exhilaration as I knocked on the door to the AEG studio for my first shoot. With me, I had brought a bag of several different outfits, just to be sure I was prepared. I had some idea of what to expect, of course, because I had accompanied Danny to his shoot a few weeks earlier to observe and have my interview. It was different now, though. I had watched the models get briefed on what the scene was about, stand in position, get spanked in front of God-knows how many viewers while I sat off to the side and vicariously felt their pain.I was about to be in their position.

It was my turn!

I knew a few things about myself that calmed me. For instance, I knew I could take a hard spanking. But that had always been in private, or in front of a select few friends at the local club. I also knew that I loved talking about my spanko-hood, and how it came to be. But never had I done so with two cameras and three people staring at me, sweltering lights and all. So I found myself a little uneasy when Betty answered the door and invited me inside to fill out my paperwork.

Luckily, I was quickly made to feel more at ease. They do a very good job of that there. Michael Masterson came in shortly after I was through signing papers, and we sat and discussed what he would be asking me during the interview, what I should expect, if I had any questions, etc. By this point, I was getting excited. I felt the exhibitionist in me surface as I thought about the experiences I wanted to share, and thought about the spankings ahead. I was given a quick tour of the studio, shown where I could change my clothes, the different sets, where the bathroom and snack room were. Then we were ready to go.

The shoot started with me sitting in a chair and getting interviewed by Michael. This was the part I was most nervous about. While I certainly feel comfortable getting a good spanking, I had a little stage fright about the talking part. As the interview progressed, however, I forgot about the camera a little more and was able to talk about one of my favorite subjects quite easily. :-) By the end of that take, I had gotten naked, talked for a while, and gotten an introductory hand spanking from Betty. Turning off the camera, the camera-man looked over at Michael and commented on how well it went. My head grew a few sizes and I was ready to jump into the next scene.

To be continued!

Also, I wanted to thank Clare Fonda for giving me a mention on her blog. She is definitely someone I greatly respect in the industry, and I cannot wait to meet her in person some day soon. :-)

Busy Weekend

I wanted to thank everyone for the wonderful comments about my first shoot. I am working on a more detailed report about it, but I am a little tied up this weekend. :-)

Family filled holiday things have approached faster than I thought! So I wanted to drop a message here to wish you all a great holiday weekend, and I will have my post up as soon as I can. Also, over on the right, I've put up a link for my new Formspring account. There you can ask me any dirty question you would like, and be anonymous! ;-) I will try and answer them within a day of receiving them. Of course, I should emphasize again that any comments left here on my posts are GREATLY appreciated, and I love reading and responding to each one. Happy early 4th!

First Spanking Shoot. . . Now Out!

I had a blast at my first spanking shoot. The content is now officially released on both RealSpankings and Realspankingsinstitute, and I am pretty happy with how they turned out. I hope all of you will join and check it out! Just go to the latest updates, and click on Sophie. :-)

Two of the three scenes I have done so far are out. The first was my “arrival” at the Institute for troubled girls and is a great caning scene in which I receive 12 of the best on my bare bottom. This was the last shoot of the day, and I had already received a hand spanking as well as a belting. Ouch! I was told that I opted to take the highest severity of spanking for a first time model. Being a die hard spanko really helps sometimes!
The second scene is my punishment profile on RealSpankings, and there you can see me get interviewed about my love of spanking, my experiences, and my fantasies. I also get spanked OTK by Betty, the regular female spanker for the site.

I had a lot of fun on this shoot and look forward to another one coming up soon. They always appreciate finding genuine spankos. I will most likely post more about this soon, but until then, go see the clips! Please. :-)

Is it Genetic?

Is there a spanko gene? It's easy to blame my relatives for my blue eyes, my red hair, and my height, but I've always wondered about what (or who) is responsible for me being a spanko. I mean, I can't remember a time when spanking wasn't on my mind. In the battle of nature vs nurture, I really have come to believe that nature had a part in this one.

Of course, I haven't the slightest idea of who in my family is also a spanko. Like many of you, I haven't shared my desire with my family, so I wouldn't expect them to share either. Frankly, I would be weirded out if they did. I don't think it's my mom. She caught me looking at a spanking website once and was thoroughly concerned for me because she thought I had gotten sucked into this demeaning mindset by strange older men. I doubt my older sister is one. She's newly married, and let's just say her new husband isn't Spanker material. It could have been my dad. He passed away five years ago, when I was 16, and we were very close. I caught him watching porn on our computer once or twice, but nothing spanking related that I can recall. Hmm... maybe my grandparents? Or maybe, I'm the start of a new trend myself.

It makes me wonder about my descendants. If and when I get married, I have pretty much concluded it will be to another spanko. I've tried vanilla relationships and was bored by date two. Is it more likely for two spankos to have offspring who will inherit said spank-happiness? Or is it completely random, a fluke that shows itself only rarely? I knew I should have paid better attention in my science classes. :-/

Coming Out of the Spanko Closet

While perusing through blogs, I came across Pixie's entry about Spanko Radar. This topic has always enthralled me, partly because of my own unwillingness to “come out” and be honest about my desire to be spanked. Sure, I'm completely outed online (even more so since being in videos and starting this blog) but I have yet to reveal this side of myself to any of my vanilla friends or acquaintances. I really don't think the majority of people would be highly offended. But I can pretty safely assume that some of them would be uncomfortable with it, and I don't want that to interfere with any future career opportunities, or otherwise valuable friendships.

Of course, then there's the argument that if someone can't accept you for who you really are, then they aren't worth conversing with anyway. It is true that the friendships I have made with fellow spankos and kinksters have been more satisfying and freeing in many ways. I love not having to censor myself when I want to make a spanking reference or feel like being a little bratty. If they're not open to that, though, I tend to carry the opinion that it isn't really their business. This is a personal passion of mine, and they may not understand the depth of it. One close girlfriend of mine is in the know, but she dismisses it as me being a little kinky, and nothing more. And I'm kind of okay with leaving it at that. I wouldn't expect her to understand, for instance, that I crave a severe discipline spanking that has no sexual undertones. She's not wired that way.

I realize, too, that I may be missing out on some opportunities by keeping my spanko-hood a secret. Who knows how many of my past boyfriends would have stepped up to the plate if only I had been brave enough to let them know I wanted a hard spanking? Some of my college classmates may even feel similar desires, and have no one to talk with about them. Is it worth it to take a chance? It's hard to know. My ex-boyfriend of three years (Malignus) made me buy a shirt that said “Only OTK” on the front in bold, black letters (we are both hard wired spankos). His logic was that if I wore the shirt around campus, only spankos would recognize the abbreviation for “over the knee”. Even though I knew this, I was terrified to wear the shirt, and could only make myself go through with it a handful of times. No one ever approached me, but I did notice some stares at the logo. I wonder how many of them went home and googled it?
What do you guys think? When, if ever, is it worth it to come out? Perspective is needed. :-)

Enjoying the Summer

One of my favorite Summer-time activities is hiking, and most of the time, I prefer to hike solo. It is my form of meditation, I guess. Being surrounded by all of the beautiful nature and smells (tree sap and pine needles mmm) can really clear my head and help me to see things more simply. Not to mention, it's a great way for me to mix up my exercise routine a little. The gym can get stuffy and crowded, even though the air conditioning is nice in such hot weather. On my last hike, I drove up through the hills until I found a deserted trail, and took my time walking through it as I enjoyed views such as this:

It seems, though, that the bugs wanted to keep me company during my alone time, and they got a little hungry. Seemingly, just for my right leg! I have been itchy for days now.
Hmm, maybe that would be a good scenario for a spanking video. Girl on a hike, who won't stop irritating her bug bites by scratching them, and complaining the whole way. It could be called “Altitude Adjustment”. :-D

It's a Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood, a Beautiful Day for a Spanking!

I have a fantasy. Okay, I have many fantasies, but this one has been with me for longer than the rest. :-) I have always wanted to live in a spanko neighborhood. An area of the world where every single inhabitant had the strong desire to spank, or be spanked. I have a strong preference for the male spanking female dynamic. Getting spanked by other females can be fun, at times, but in this fantasy, it's those naughty girls who are taken in hand by the men.

Can you imagine it? Rows of houses, with white picket fences and maybe well equipped woodsheds in the backyards. It would be a common sight to see an unruly young lady getting turned around for some swift, firm swats to her backside right in the middle of the street.

During a visit to a neighbor's house, it would not be unusual for two women to get in trouble together, and the closest man would be the one to take care of both of them, side by side. Welcome wagons filled with leather straps and arnica would replace the typical brownie plate for new neighbors.

Have any of you had this fantasy, or something similar? What other little tidbits were included in yours? Do tell!

Into the Woods- Part 2

Once we had hiked in far enough, B found a log to sit on and over his knee I went. He started off spanking me with his hand over my skirt, and I remember thinking to myself, “I thought this would hurt a lot more!”. He was being easy on me though, and after about a minute of that, he flipped up my skirt and started spanking a little harder over my panties. It stung, and I began to shift a little, causing him to pull me in against him more firmly. My mind was buzzing with thoughts: “Wow, this kinda stings. . .it's not so bad, though. . . I can't believe I'm actually getting a spanking!. . .this feels right, I like it here . . ow, that one hurt. . .I want more!” The spanking came to an end, though, and B sat me up on his lap to ask how I was doing. My dazed grin must have said it all, because he stood me up and told me to bend forward and place my hands on the log because he had something else for me to try (spanking-wise, get those minds out of the gutter!).

I did as he said and peeked back over my shoulder to see him picking up a long stick from the ground. I panicked slightly, but I trusted him by this point and kept my position. Tapping the switch against my pantied bottom, B snapped it down quickly, causing me to inhale sharply. It certainly felt a lot different than his hand, but I found myself with a similar desire for it to continue, to see just how much I could take, to feel the increasing warmth and sting in my backside. It hurt, and it felt so wonderful to me.

The switching was very short, and soon I stood up, rubbed my bottom, and let my skirt fall back down as we hiked down to our cars. That night, in bed, I remember feeling my bottom for the longest time, running my fingers up and down the slightly reddened skin, savoring the knowledge that I had recently been over someone's knee, skirt up, getting my naughty bottom spanked. I knew then that is was only the beginning.

Into the Woods

I'm going to be honest and admit that, like many people. I wasn't completely honest about my identity when I first started chatting on line. I was discovering what I liked and was nervous about meshing that world with my current, vanilla one. I told people I was older than I was and made up a profession so that I could feel safe about keeping the two worlds separate. While that worked for a while, I found that living two lives wasn't all that easy, or healthy. I had been talking to one man in particular (I'll call him “B”) who lived locally to me. Through my inconsistencies, B found out I was lying. He brought it up to me over chat and I, being the brave and upright girl that I am, promptly fled the conversation without so much as a goodbye.

Strangely enough, B ended up giving me my first spanking. :) Through email, he convinced me to talk with him on the phone, and it felt wonderful to be able to share my real self with someone who shared my interest in all things spanky. After several weeks of talking, we agreed to meet at a Barnes and Noble. Looking back on it now, I made some really unsafe decisions. I was seventeen, and was not willing to admit to anyone that I was meeting someone from the Internet. So I had no safety call, and no one knew my location. I have learned a lot since then.

Luckily, everything turned out well. We met and had coffee, and I was able to get over my shyness rather easily. B asked if I wanted to try getting a spanking. I remember finding the situation very surreal. Spanking was something I had thought and fantasized about for the majority of my life, and here I was with the opportunity to finally get one! I agreed, and we decided to make it an outdoor spanking since neither of us had a place that would work (I still lived at home and he had roommates). I knew of a hiking trail close to where we were, and suggested we hike up a bit so we were more isolated (Yes, I was in the woods with a man I barely knew- so many of you want to spank me right now!).
Part two of this post will be up soon, I don't want to make this overly lengthy! And just as a side note, I REALLY have been loving reading all of your comments, and I'm so excited that I am slowly gaining some readers. If I have any lurkers, please say hi! I promise you can spank me if I bite. ;) Also, a special thanks to Todd and Suzy, who have winked to my blog from theirs. Take a look if you haven't already!